I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away
I didn't know that it was so cold and
You needed someone
To show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out that
When the time comes
I'd take you away
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
Was somebody who cares
I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
Was somebody who cares...
(Michelle Branch's "All You Wanted")
For Jared, because this is our song. Because all we've had is each other for so long. Because we keep each other sane. Because it's cold outside and somewhere around each other we're warm. Because everything around us is broken and we break everything we try to have. And because sometimes I wish I knew where you were.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Nghh... Pissed off.
Was playing NavyField just now; today's a good day. Earlier on, in the wee hours of the morning, there were a lot of Light Cruisers being "charitable": you had at least three rooms at any one time which were "7 DD vs 1 CL" (7 Destroyers vs 1 Light Cruiser) or stuff like that. Was good fun and good teamwork, coz it was all of us against one CL, haha. Although there was one of those games where my team's teamwork was crappy and the CL ended up taking out all of us. 1 CL took down EIGHT DDs. 0_0 (I was the last one down, haha.)
Anyway, was playing again just now, and had quite a few good games; won some and lost some, but still managed to level up my sailors and accumulate about 5000 credits. But the last game I played pissed me off.
3 teams, Alpha, Bravo and Charlie; I was on Bravo, and we decided to go pick off Charlie first. About five minutes into the game, C was down to two ships and we were down to three; the three of us were ganging up on the second last one; he was on my left, and he was already dead in the water-- things were looking good. Then the ASSHOLE teammate on my right decides he wants the frag, so he releases his torps.
And I'm on his left.
So the torps went through me, SUNK me, and the remaining ones sunk the Charlie ship. Effing asswipe TK'ed me!!! (TK means "team kill".)
Stupid bastard. Ngghh.
But, onto... happier things. Might be getting a new phone later; I'm not *too* keen on the Nokia 6101 that's on offer, but I guess it's all right... Well, we'll see. For now, the books are calling.
Was playing NavyField just now; today's a good day. Earlier on, in the wee hours of the morning, there were a lot of Light Cruisers being "charitable": you had at least three rooms at any one time which were "7 DD vs 1 CL" (7 Destroyers vs 1 Light Cruiser) or stuff like that. Was good fun and good teamwork, coz it was all of us against one CL, haha. Although there was one of those games where my team's teamwork was crappy and the CL ended up taking out all of us. 1 CL took down EIGHT DDs. 0_0 (I was the last one down, haha.)
Anyway, was playing again just now, and had quite a few good games; won some and lost some, but still managed to level up my sailors and accumulate about 5000 credits. But the last game I played pissed me off.
3 teams, Alpha, Bravo and Charlie; I was on Bravo, and we decided to go pick off Charlie first. About five minutes into the game, C was down to two ships and we were down to three; the three of us were ganging up on the second last one; he was on my left, and he was already dead in the water-- things were looking good. Then the ASSHOLE teammate on my right decides he wants the frag, so he releases his torps.
And I'm on his left.
So the torps went through me, SUNK me, and the remaining ones sunk the Charlie ship. Effing asswipe TK'ed me!!! (TK means "team kill".)
Stupid bastard. Ngghh.
But, onto... happier things. Might be getting a new phone later; I'm not *too* keen on the Nokia 6101 that's on offer, but I guess it's all right... Well, we'll see. For now, the books are calling.
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Zoo trip was.. hm. Fun. In a way. Might have been more so if we'd actually walked through that rainforest walk that Ivan told me about and which ended up being my main impetus for coming along.
I was still only in half a mind as to whether or not to go on Thursday, until Ivan told me about the rainforest walk thing where they had animals freely roaming around and which you could touch... I'm not so sure about that last point, but that's what he said so, yeah.
We left the zoo at about 6 plus, then a few of us went to Orchard and had a bit of fun by ourselves; Hock and Leon and Ivan Chen joined us at Orchard, but Hock had to leave early. I left a while after he did, mainly because it was getting late, and I was losing interest.
And on the bus, I came to realise something.
In the clubroom, among the guys who played DotA, there once existed what was known as the "DotA Widows Club". It was enough of an internal joke that it even got featured in the Thank You Dinner video.
And the "Widows Club" once had four members; the girlfriends of four of the guys who played DotA.
And what of it now, you may ask?
Well, it doesn't exist. There's only one of them left which has survived the ravages of such a short time, but one member is hardly a club now, is it?
"...He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good."
(excerpted from "Two Songs for Hedli Anderson", by W.H. Auden)
I was still only in half a mind as to whether or not to go on Thursday, until Ivan told me about the rainforest walk thing where they had animals freely roaming around and which you could touch... I'm not so sure about that last point, but that's what he said so, yeah.
We left the zoo at about 6 plus, then a few of us went to Orchard and had a bit of fun by ourselves; Hock and Leon and Ivan Chen joined us at Orchard, but Hock had to leave early. I left a while after he did, mainly because it was getting late, and I was losing interest.
And on the bus, I came to realise something.
In the clubroom, among the guys who played DotA, there once existed what was known as the "DotA Widows Club". It was enough of an internal joke that it even got featured in the Thank You Dinner video.
And the "Widows Club" once had four members; the girlfriends of four of the guys who played DotA.
And what of it now, you may ask?
Well, it doesn't exist. There's only one of them left which has survived the ravages of such a short time, but one member is hardly a club now, is it?
"...He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good."
(excerpted from "Two Songs for Hedli Anderson", by W.H. Auden)
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Papers are all handed in! And the semester's over!
Which means that exams are starting in about a week's time. Bummer. Can't an undergrad get any rest?!
A few people were saying that they'd got the email regarding seat numbers for the exams already, but I haven't so decided to just go check by myself instead of waiting around for the mail.
And I was playing NavyField last night; got fed up with manual firing again, so I got lazy and switched back to the auto Firing Control System. I'll learn manual some other time. And I got rather pissed off last night coz in all the battles that I joined, I had crappy teammates (or the other side had better teamwork), so I didn't earn much in the way of frag or credits. Damn.
But, on the bright side, three of my sailors reached level 14, and two of them are stationed at the torp tubes, so I can fit torp tubes now! Only thing that worries me is the safe distance; they need 15 km before they arm, and I'm not sure if that's a very long or very short distance.
And, talk about um.. culture shock. If you can call it that. Most of the time whenever I've played NavyField in the past, there's a lot of Spanish and German and whatever else flying around on the chat panels; mostly European languages and English, but last night, all the Singaporeans were online.
And you have no idea how funny it was to see Hokkien curse words scrolling up on the chat panel.
Any Europeans playing in that room at that time would probably have been thinking, "What the hell??" Especially with the standard of the English that was used. Er, *when* English was used, that is. Haha...
Going to the zoo tomorrow, with the rest of the 25th MC and a few of the Arts Club affiliates. Don't know what on earth there is to see, but Ivan says that there's a rainforest walk thing where there're animals roaming around freely in there and you can touch them!
Still very tired though. Not going to finish my revision at this rate... *sob*. -.-
Which means that exams are starting in about a week's time. Bummer. Can't an undergrad get any rest?!
A few people were saying that they'd got the email regarding seat numbers for the exams already, but I haven't so decided to just go check by myself instead of waiting around for the mail.
And I was playing NavyField last night; got fed up with manual firing again, so I got lazy and switched back to the auto Firing Control System. I'll learn manual some other time. And I got rather pissed off last night coz in all the battles that I joined, I had crappy teammates (or the other side had better teamwork), so I didn't earn much in the way of frag or credits. Damn.
But, on the bright side, three of my sailors reached level 14, and two of them are stationed at the torp tubes, so I can fit torp tubes now! Only thing that worries me is the safe distance; they need 15 km before they arm, and I'm not sure if that's a very long or very short distance.
And, talk about um.. culture shock. If you can call it that. Most of the time whenever I've played NavyField in the past, there's a lot of Spanish and German and whatever else flying around on the chat panels; mostly European languages and English, but last night, all the Singaporeans were online.
And you have no idea how funny it was to see Hokkien curse words scrolling up on the chat panel.
Any Europeans playing in that room at that time would probably have been thinking, "What the hell??" Especially with the standard of the English that was used. Er, *when* English was used, that is. Haha...
Going to the zoo tomorrow, with the rest of the 25th MC and a few of the Arts Club affiliates. Don't know what on earth there is to see, but Ivan says that there's a rainforest walk thing where there're animals roaming around freely in there and you can touch them!
Still very tired though. Not going to finish my revision at this rate... *sob*. -.-
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Essays are almost done. Just one more to go; editing group report right now. Hand it up tomorrow morning and I'm free! YAY!!!
Over the past week or so, I feel like I've become some sort of Microsoft Word expert; I now know a lot of functions which I never really knew before. And I now have a sort of template for my papers! My own personal template kinda thing, that is. Getting the hang of writing essays now.
My lack of sleep at night still hasn't managed to disrupt my body clock very much; I can go to sleep at 6.30 am and I'll still wake up before 9 am. Annoying. But at least that means that I can maximise my time. Always need to look on the bright side, yes.
I've only actually slept at night about two or three times in the last week and up till today (didn't sleep last night either); I know that my neighbour's fish will start bobbing up in the pond and making gulping noises at about 2.30 am, I know that the newspaper man comes by at about 5.30 am, and then I can hear the soft putt-putt-putting of the scooter and the quick plop of the paper on the front porch. And then I hear him doing the same for the neighbours.
Didn't you ever used to wonder where the newspaper came from when you were a child? You'd wake up every morning and there'd be a paper on your doorstep, sitting there all by its innocuous self, with no indication of how it got there, and in your little childish mind, you could never conceive of the fact that someone was awake before you were, riding around dropping off the papers...
Because you thought the world only began when you woke up, and you didn't really have an idea of where the time between last night and this morning went.
Over the past week or so, I feel like I've become some sort of Microsoft Word expert; I now know a lot of functions which I never really knew before. And I now have a sort of template for my papers! My own personal template kinda thing, that is. Getting the hang of writing essays now.
My lack of sleep at night still hasn't managed to disrupt my body clock very much; I can go to sleep at 6.30 am and I'll still wake up before 9 am. Annoying. But at least that means that I can maximise my time. Always need to look on the bright side, yes.
I've only actually slept at night about two or three times in the last week and up till today (didn't sleep last night either); I know that my neighbour's fish will start bobbing up in the pond and making gulping noises at about 2.30 am, I know that the newspaper man comes by at about 5.30 am, and then I can hear the soft putt-putt-putting of the scooter and the quick plop of the paper on the front porch. And then I hear him doing the same for the neighbours.
Didn't you ever used to wonder where the newspaper came from when you were a child? You'd wake up every morning and there'd be a paper on your doorstep, sitting there all by its innocuous self, with no indication of how it got there, and in your little childish mind, you could never conceive of the fact that someone was awake before you were, riding around dropping off the papers...
Because you thought the world only began when you woke up, and you didn't really have an idea of where the time between last night and this morning went.
Friday, November 04, 2005
Even in the midst of rushing my Sociology of Food essay I'm taking breaks here and there. To do completely useless stuff such as this:
My life is rated PG-13.
What is your life rated?
Using the Singaporean system though, I'd actually rate it M18 for violence, violent language and ideas, and occasional use of strong obscenities.
Oh, and lookie what I found while looking through some Harry Potter sites!
Just... whoa. Haha. Droolworthy. Very suave. XD
Ho-hum. *Wanders back to essaying-land*
My life is rated PG-13.
What is your life rated?
Using the Singaporean system though, I'd actually rate it M18 for violence, violent language and ideas, and occasional use of strong obscenities.
Oh, and lookie what I found while looking through some Harry Potter sites!
Just... whoa. Haha. Droolworthy. Very suave. XD
Ho-hum. *Wanders back to essaying-land*
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
I like the Harry Potter trailers... On the official site, there're three of them and I LOVE the second one!!
The music is just wonderful!
Well, of course, the trailer as a whole is nice too, but the MUSIC!
I suppose you get my point. :P
I just love the music most of all. And Harry Potter is slowly becoming like Lord of the Rings, in that aspect; the music, the drama (becoming more end-of-the-world-like now), blah blah blah and everything. Well, aside from the bit of teenage hormonal angst every now and then like how Harry angsts over how he just can't getlaid a girlfriend, it's a lot like Lord of the Rings, yeah.
And speaking of Harry's girlfriend! Cho Chang in the movie is not overly stunning. I mean, she's pretty, but.. hm. Well, then again, I suppose it's enough. She *is* quite pretty. Disagree with my sister saying that she's "ugly".
The girl playing Fleur Delacour is damn pretty!!
And I watched the "Memoirs of A Geisha" trailer as well. I don't think Zhang Ziyi is *that* pretty.
All right, shall return to thinking of a topic for my Soci of Food essay. Need to do lots of things, and cannot sleep, although I probably need to sleep, as am sick again for the fourth time this year. Gah.
Keep thinking about how I'd like a new Chronicles of Narnia box set.
I'm digressing. Blame my fluey-ness. Hope I get better really quickly after all my essays are due, coz first paper is on 18th, and if I don't get better soon, nothing I study will get into my head! Argh.
*sulk*
Well, a lot of good that's going to do.
Sigh. Dinner now. Which will probably not taste like much since I can't smell or taste anything. Sigh.
The music is just wonderful!
Well, of course, the trailer as a whole is nice too, but the MUSIC!
I suppose you get my point. :P
I just love the music most of all. And Harry Potter is slowly becoming like Lord of the Rings, in that aspect; the music, the drama (becoming more end-of-the-world-like now), blah blah blah and everything. Well, aside from the bit of teenage hormonal angst every now and then like how Harry angsts over how he just can't get
And speaking of Harry's girlfriend! Cho Chang in the movie is not overly stunning. I mean, she's pretty, but.. hm. Well, then again, I suppose it's enough. She *is* quite pretty. Disagree with my sister saying that she's "ugly".
The girl playing Fleur Delacour is damn pretty!!
And I watched the "Memoirs of A Geisha" trailer as well. I don't think Zhang Ziyi is *that* pretty.
All right, shall return to thinking of a topic for my Soci of Food essay. Need to do lots of things, and cannot sleep, although I probably need to sleep, as am sick again for the fourth time this year. Gah.
Keep thinking about how I'd like a new Chronicles of Narnia box set.
I'm digressing. Blame my fluey-ness. Hope I get better really quickly after all my essays are due, coz first paper is on 18th, and if I don't get better soon, nothing I study will get into my head! Argh.
*sulk*
Well, a lot of good that's going to do.
Sigh. Dinner now. Which will probably not taste like much since I can't smell or taste anything. Sigh.