You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be poetry, writing or song.
You love beauty and creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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Well, now my A-levels are officially over.

Not that I (or any of the Lit students, for that matter) were all that much bothered with the last paper, though. Lol. :P

Hmm.... was just thinking about last night...

Ever seen a clear night sky before?

It's really beautiful. Like last night's sky.

I'm not sure which way my house faces, but there was a wind last night- pretty cold wind too- and it was blowing from the back of my house, pushing the clouds with it and all the clouds were just piling up in the sky in front of my house.

You know how clouds sometimes look pinkish at night?

Yeah, so there was this huge mass of... pale-pink cotton wool hanging in the deep blue sky and around the back of my house, where the sky had been completely cleared of all the clouds... man.

When the sky's clear, you can see all the stars that're up there, and I don't know about most people, but for me it's just fascinating.

It's only the second time in my life that I've seen a night sky so clear; so clear that you can see every single star up there, and there're so many of them that even those that aren't shining all that brightly enough to be clearly seen, you can see them; these really tiny pinpricks of light that don't really twinkle since they can't be seen all that well. They just seem to shimmer, really. Like they're stuck in the fabric that's the sky and the fabric happens to have glitter on it. Really fine glitter.

It's times like these I wish I had a camera at hand.

But then again, maybe it'd be too dark and the picture wouldn't be able to develop. Sigh.

I managed to see Orion for the first time in a long time. I haven't gone outside to look at Orion in ages. Not since late last year, I think.

I've never seen the stars in Orion shine so brightly, or clearly, for that matter. The three stars in the "belt" were just twinkling away for all their worth and I'd have stayed out there the whole night if my neck wasn't getting tired from staring straight upwards like that.

The sky this morning was beautiful too. Must've been some leftover from last night. :) To summarise, from out my window it looked like the sky was just one large... tank of light-blue-dyed water hanging up there and someone had put light pink cotton wool in it. And the cotton wool was just drifting all over the place. :)

Sometimes I wish I had some kind of artistic talent.

I wish that whatever I can see I could paint or draw; sometimes the things that I imagine, I wish I could give them form on paper; in a form with colour, not with words.

I can do it with words, I can write, but it's never enough.

I want to draw it, paint it, or do something...

I want to be able to see it, you know?

I want to be able to look at it and see something that I could only see in my head looking back at me, and I want other people to see what I saw and maybe they didn't.

I want to bring it to life, and words just aren't enough.

But they're all I have, so... I guess I'll stick with my writing.

That's it.

My A-levels are unofficially over.

Unofficially, coz next Thursday's actually my last paper, but I can't study for that one since it's an unseen paper. And all the Lit students feel the same way too, so we're all just sorta ignoring our last paper.... :P

After dinner, I was just wandering about the house, doing nothing, and for a minute, I was just thinking about how great it was to be doing absolutely nothing.

I mean, doing nothing, just pottering about aimlessly, lazing around; it feels WONDERFUL!!

For once, I don't feel guilty about wasting time that could be spent studying or whatever..........

Man, this is what two weeks of mugging does to you... haha. :P

Gonna see if I can book tickets for the Lord of the Rings trilogy marathon screening tomorrow.

12 hours; from 9 am to 9.30 pm.

Woohoo... that's gonna be damn fun!! :D

Tomorrow, I'm gonna start on all the writing that I put on hold for the A's.

It's a lot of writing. :D

So excited! :D

I have only ever been late for a major exam twice in my life, and both those times, thanks to luck, I turned out not to be late after all.

But today was seriously a close shave. :S

The first time was my SAT paper; I woke up at 7 plus, I think, and I thought that reporting time was 8!

I reached school at about 8.10 and found out that reporting time was actually 8.30, so yeah, that one was okay.

But today, my Lit paper was at 8 am, and I got that mixed up with tomorrow's Geog paper which starts at 2 pm!!

I thought that today's paper was at 2!!

Geez, thank goodness my dad woke me up before he left the house and I came downstairs to check my timetable.

I saw the time for my Lit paper there and I was like, "Oh, S**T."

And it was 7.40 by then. :S

Good thing my dad hadn't left the house yet, so he got me to school and I managed to get into the exam hall about 30 seconds before the official start of the paper. :P

I am one seriously lucky girl.

Let's just hope that luck doesn't run out any time soon!! :P

Aw, man.........

The All Blacks lost the semi-final..... :(

Oh well. I guess it would hard to beat the three-years-in-a-row defending champions. :P

Still, I guess they put up a pretty good game, even though their form was kinda off.... Needless to say, well, Australia was pretty fantastic. :)

Well, third-placing game next week: NZ vs France.

Both John and I say that France is going down!!!!! :D

Something tells me that today's entry's gonna be a long one. On Thursday night, I started thinking about friends after Kevin messaged me good luck for my Geog, and I've decided that it'll make a nice rant for my blog.

Friends are strange things.... I mean that in the nicest possible way, really.

I think I'm kind of a pathetic person, really; for one thing, I believe that I have pretty low EQ. I can be extremely insensitive at times and most of those times, I don't particularly care.

So on occasions when I suddenly realise how many friends I've got, it surprises me, seriously.

Like on my birthday when Jo and Beatrice messaged me after I hadn't heard from them in one and a half years, man, that was shocking. Shocking and really nice to know that they'd gone through Pam to get my number just so that they could message me "happy birthday" and everything.

And then when I walked around school there were other band people like Dawn and Kevin with more "happy birthdays" and Pam and John messaged me first thing that morning to say "happy birthday" too.

It was kinda overwhelming.

And up till last year, I don't think anyone had ever told me that they missed me before.

I think at that time it was after band on a Saturday, Khai Yee happened to message me and she said something along the lines of "Hi, how's life, etc, etc, I've missed you."

The last three words kinda confused me right then and there, I tell ya. The first thing that came to mind was "Why would anyone miss me?"

By the way, I'm still not too sure why.

And one of the things that scares me the most in this world is the thought of losing friends. Well, not really friends in general, but just the ones that really matter, like Pam and Sylvia and John, most importantly, after which follows almost the whole 2003 J2 population of the band.

Sometimes I get terrified, for no stupid reason at all, that just coz I haven't talked to Pam or Sylvia or John for ages, they're gonna abandon me and ignore me the next time they see me, or maybe they'll have found someone else better than me or maybe they'll think that I can't be bothered with them anymore or something like that.

And then out of nowhere, sometimes I get little messages that they're still there and seriously, I think most of the time, that's the only thing that keeps me semi-sane.

Pam seldom messages me, unless it's really important, but I don't really think it's her messages that matter. For a period of time last year, I was kinda worried that she'd forget about me and all that, but now I think I've got over that.
Somehow I no longer believe that how often or how seldom she messages matters anymore; I just know that she does care, and trust me, that means almost literally the whole world to me.

Sylvia forwards all sorts of silly messages to me and it's really nice to know that she remembers me! I'd probably get worried if she stopped messaging! I feel kinda guilty for not messaging her as often, but when I do I try to send her those really nice ones.... haha.

Pam and Sylvia are probably two of the best people in the world to talk to; between the three of us, we could talk about absolutely anything, I tell ya. :D

Hm... about John, it actually surprises me that I could make such a good friend in slightly more than a year. He's the second person in the list of five boys whom I'll try very hard to go and see off when they leave for NS; he probably knows who three of the other four will be (and for that matter, Pam probably knows too. :P). He won't know who the last person is, but that's simply coz he doesn't know the guy.

John is seriously one of the most thoughtful people that I've ever met in this life, and just about the only guy that I've talked to about well, "guy" problems. Haha. It's usually the sorta thing that girls would talk about amongst girls, but I think John's a great listener. John's probably one of those people who were put on Earth so that everyone else could have someone who'd listen.

And then there are other people like Dawn and Kevin and Soon Aik, whom I don't talk to all that much, but they pop up every now and then, most of the time sending messages that are a really nice pick-up for the day. Those usually come out of the blue since I don't usually expect messages from them, like Kevin's good luck message. (Kevin, if you're reading this, thanx again! :D)

I've always sucked at writing conclusions for my essays. And even when I'm just ranting, I can't think of a proper conclusion. Damn, I'm pathetic. :P

- Which Legolas are You? -

Hm...last night's study was probably one of the most fun that I've had... lol.

John's friends are a real bunch of comedians; they're really fun! :D

Anyway, surprisingly, there weren't many people in school; I saw less than twenty in all, in the canteen and outside the library.

Strange. I thought there'd be more people there, given how close we are to the exams and everything, but I guess some just prefer to stay at home where everything is. That way, they won't have forgotten to bring something along with them and not be able to study it.

Lalala....had consultation today and I got paid for my first "tuition" lesson after that. Lol.

I was teaching Daphne and Dhanya on Atmosphere, and then later they went to eat lunch and Daphne treated me for teaching her Geog... lol. :D

Maybe I'll give tuition for Geog in future. I need to work on explaining skills though.... :P

Going back to school later for night study. Gonna ask John to explain a whole lot of Econs stuff to me.

I hope I'm not getting tiresome. :S

5 days to A levels.

The gods help us all.

I don't know what I'm doing.

I still don't really feel anything about my A-levels, which tells me that I'm in deep s**t.

Wasted half the day yesterday watching the two Lord of the Rings movies and suddenly, the Elvish makes sense.

I mean, I'm starting to see the err....link?...between the Elvish that they're saying and the English subtitles.

I should be studying.

Damn it.

All right, that's it, I'm getting off the computer.