I have no idea why, but I'm starting to think about cooking and baking stuff a lot these days. I think I'm just bored and I wanna do something.

Oh, but I watched Jamie's Kitchen today; I'm starting to agree with Pam-- Jamie Oliver is lovely. Haha.

He and those trainees that he was training to work in his restaurant went to cook for the Prime Minister in today's ep; and the Irish Premier was over too.

And there was this part before a commercial break where the phone was ringing and he was walking past the camera to answer it, while saying: "This isn't our kitchen, and we've had to bring all our stuff, and if we've forgotten to bring anything, we'll really be in shit."

Then he picks up the phone, and grinning away, he says: "Hello, Number Ten kitchen."

I just found that part rather adorable, lol.

Oh, and Number Ten is really posh; the rooms are huge and have high ceilings and everything; looking at it from the outside, you'd NEVER imagine that it was that big!!

There was this other cooking show on after Jamie's Kitchen; there was this nice dessert that the guy was making; Coffee Creme Brulee. The "Creme Brulee" is supposed to have accents on some of the letters, but I dunno how to do it, so well, heck. :P

It looks gorgeous anyway, but I've forgotten what it was that he mixed the coffee powder with before he poured it into the cream! Dang.

Shall have to go try and find the recipe.

And I still need to get strawberries and blueberries for my cheesecake!

"Home is behind, the world ahead,
And there are many paths to tread
Through shadows to the edge of night,
Until the stars are all alight.
Then world behind and home ahead,
We'll wander back to home and bed.
Mist and twilight, cloud and shade,
Away shall fade! Away shall fade!"

--Pippin's song in "The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King" movie; "The Steward of Gondor"
--originally the third verse of "A Walking Song" in JRR Tolkien's "The Fellowship of the Ring"

First off, MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :D

Went with John to see Lord of the Rings: Return of the King yesterday, and MY GOD-

It should be a bloody CRIME for any man to look as beautiful as Orlando Bloom did in his last shot. Or last two shots, really. :D

Firstly:
When Frodo was back in Rivendell and the hobbits were all jumping around on his bed (Oh, btw, isn't Pippin the most adorable little hobbit alive, haha. Well, I mean Billy Boyd, of course. :P) and then Legolas shows up in the doorway wearing his silvery-purple tunic, I SWEAR, right then, I knew what the phrase "to have your jaw hit the floor" meant!! O.O

Then secondly:
At Aragorn's coronation.... that circlet, so simple yet so elegant, and he looked ALL the MORE GORGEOUS- oh GOOD GRIEF....

What have we done to deserve a sight as breathtaking as thee?

No one's life is complete without watching the LOTR Trilogy; I mean all three movies.

And of course, we should all watch it and worship the perfection that is Orlando Bloom, and stand in awe of the diversity of Viggo Mortensen's many talents. :P

I swear, I'm letting my girlishness take over in this post, but heck, I don't care. :P

Oh, and Billy Boyd's voice is wonderful.

It's not as broad or polished as an accomplished singer's would be, but it doesn't matter; for that song that he sang, it's simply heartbreaking.

".... All shall fade..."

Yes, and that coupled with the shots of Faramir's company riding to their certain doom.... That was the first time in the movie that the tears started up in my eyes.

Oh, and speaking of hobbits; YES, Samwise Gamgee is THE bravest little hobbit of all!!! Whatever would poor helpless little Frodo do without him?!?

GO SAM!!! And Pippin too, haha. Scratch one for Pippin when he stabbed that orc sneaking up on Gandalf.

"No place for a hobbit" eh, Mithrandir? :P

I need to buy the soundtrack.... I love the music.

And I need to go watch it again!!! I HAVE TO!!! :P

Woohoo! Alumni performance was fun! Fun fun fun fun fun. :P

Seriously, it was pretty cool; people were gathering around before we even started playing and there were cute little kids crawling around all over the place, mostly around Alvin's feet, haha. :P There were more people than I expected, that's for sure. And people took pictures. Probably tourists.

Y'know, this means that I'll be on someone's photos halfway across the world, and I won't even know who these people are and they won't know who I am either! Now that I think of it like that, that's sorta weird. :P

Oh, and when we played Feliz Navidad for the second time at the end, people were clapping along; man, I was even more surprised. :D

Dawn and Soon Aik came to watch; Kwan Chin and Pam's flute senior came too. I think his name's Kenneth. Can't really remember. :P There were lots of other seniors there too... people from like, Matthew's batch or something, all older than me and I've never seen 'em before! :P

And afterwards, when we got back to CJ, we all sang Alvin "Happy Birthday" (in advance, tho, coz his bday's really next week) and Thye Ann and someone else came up to him towards the end of the song and sprayed him with foam..... LOL...

And the foam smelt of "toilet air freshener". :P Well, that's what Alvin said, haha. But I thought that the foam smelt nice! :P

Pamela loved the Jamie Oliver book that Sylvia and I bought her too!

Oh, and yesterday I bought my first alcoholic drink. Haha.

It was just so cool. I placed the bottle on the counter, and the cashier said that she needed to see some ID, so I showed her my IC and she went, "Ok," and started cashing the transaction. So cool. I felt so important right then, LOL. It was all "I'm eighteen and I can buy alcohol!!!" Haha........

It was a bottle of Blackcurrant Hooch, anyway. Actually wanted to buy the Peach Bacardi Breezer that was sitting next to it on the bottom shelf of the cooler, but the Bacardi Breezer was 70 cents more expensive.

And I didn't want the first alcoholic drink that I ever bought to be some pansy-ass fruit flavoured thing like a peach flavoured drink, so I bought the Hooch instead. LOL.

I know, the Hooch is fruit-flavoured too, but it doesn't seem as pansy-assed as the peach-flavoured thing does, haha. :P

I'm just weird. :P

Need to go see "Lord of the Rings: Return of the King". Must go and watch by some time next week... and I have... 12 Christmas cards to send out by Monday. And the bad thing is that I think we've run out of Christmas cards in the house.

I have found my new idol. :P

Viggo Mortensen.

The guy's a poet, a photographer, a painter, and the fact that he can act and sing is just a plus. Apart from acting and singing though, the guy is everything that I could ever want to be!!

One of these days, when I have enough money, I'll buy myself a good, proper camera, and maybe I'll go find some open field or something and take pictures of clouds. And when I get older, I'll move to New Zealand or Australia and take pictures of the scenery there.

And when I become a retiree, I want to live on a quiet street, and on cloudy afternoons, sit on my front porch in a rocking chair with a pot of coffee and a portable CD player on a table nearby, and I'll just sit there with my coffee and soft cafe music playing and watch the day go by.

I want to live on a quiet small town street where everyday, at around noon, you can hear children running past, laughing and playing. I want to live in a town where nothing is ever in a hurry, except perhaps when there's a fire, which of course, I hope, never happens. I want to live in a town where the streets are quiet, where you hear the birds more often than the cars, and even when the cars do come past, they're never in a hurry to get anywhere and they cruise past in an unhurried fashion, so quietly that they hardly make any distrubance at all. Or of course, in the future, they may have been able to make cars that don't make any noise at all or they might be able to float or something. :P

I think I'm too much of an idealist, but I don't think it hurts to dream. Let's just hope that New Zealand stays pretty much the way that it is now. So that I'll have some hope of fulfilling that dream.

But first, there's the rest of my life to live. To get there, I'm going to have to get through a teenage identity crisis, working life, and a mid-life crisis.

Well, Life seems awfully fun. :P

Woohoo.... found a whole LOT of excellent brushes and pictures yesterday.

Something tells me that I'm about to go on a Photoshop editing spree soon. :P

Meanwhile, in another shocking news (well, all right, not all that shocking, haha) I have found out that Ben Adams has an official site and well, a strong solo career. For that matter, so does Mark Read. And actually, both sites look kinda similar. Except for the fact that Ben's is black & white.

Like I said... the things that go on in this world when you're not looking or paying attention. Geez.

I swear, I live under a rock. Or in a shell. I might even be a tortoise and not know it. :P

Lalala.... what else to type?

Oh, yes, well, me's currently obsessed with the Pirates of the Caribbean Theme. It's fantastic, especially one part in the middle; the best part of the piece. It starts at 2.01 minutes. :P Also, combining the electric guitar solo with the orchestra is very cool. :D

Geez..... it's amazing and scary, the way that things can go on in the world while you don't know anything.

I mean, I just decided to go read some seaQuest fics today; I do miss that show and Lucas was such a lovable character. :P And then I came upon this story whose summary started with "In memory of Jonathan Brandis".

I was like, "wtf?!?"

Anyway, after a little sourcing around, it's sad to say that yeah.... he's dead. Suicide on 12th Nov this year. What makes it even more... well, horrible is that it was just recently.

And all that comes to mind is his performance as Lucas in seaQuest and how he was such a lovable character. Jonathan Brandis himself was great; I just can't see how he could possibly have it in his mind to off himself.

But well, we don't know anything, right?

Sigh.

... seaQuest ended in 1996, so it's about 7 years later that he's gone. Man. It's just... kinda weird.

Strange how much Life can f*** you up enough to drive you to suicide; to make you go from a young person pretty satisfied with his life to someone who couldn't see any other way out.

But I guess no one said that Life was all that nice, anyway.

Lookie, new template!! :D

Isn't it pretty. There was actually another one which was pretty cool coz it had a phoenix and fire (Yes, I have pyromaniacal tendencies) on it, but the code was somewhat screwed, so... sigh.

This one's still nice, anyway. :)

Meh... yesterday's alumni band was pretty okay...

I have nice seniors! Matthew (yeah, another Matthew) and Pei Hsia. Two years older than me, but they're pretty fun. :) I was afraid that my seniors were gonna be really smart, musical people who would probably get annoyed at me coz I suck at playing, haha. :P

I tend to get terrified of people older than me... especially when I'm expected to mingle with them. It's a silly notion, but I'm a silly person, see. :P

Surprisingly, I still remember some of my clarinet stuff! In fact, I actually remembered some of the fingering without realising it. Weird.

I guess it is true when they say that you never really forget anything. Everything must just be floating around in our subconscious somewhere. :P

And get this, Alvin actually won't allow me to call him "sir". I called him "sir" twice yesterday, and both times he told me to stop calling him that. He actually sounded kinda annoyed.

I don't get it. If someone wanted to call me "sir", I wouldn't mind! :P

He told me it was all that crap about having graduated from school and everything already and I was alumni, so I didn't have to address him as "sir"... meh. Whatever. I'm used to calling him "sir", anyway; I've done it for two years!

If I suddenly started calling him Alvin to his face, that'd just be flat-out weird. I mean, all the band people call him Alvin under the table, but (if we remember :P) we call him "sir" to his face. He's older than me, anyway, so "sir" sounds right...

Ah, whatever. He's weird. Haha. :P

We're playing nice songs for some performance, I think. All Christmassy songs, and Les Miserables.

Finally! Always wanted to play Les Miz! :D

Well, maybe not always, haha, but ever since I heard a band play it. I think that was at RJ's concert earlier this year.

Lalala..... nothing else to say. Or type. Meh. I seem to be using that word a lot. Actually, I don't even think it's a real word. Ah well, who cares. :P

The prom post (",)

Lalala.... just got back from prom about an hour ago.

Everyone looked really nice, and I won $44! :D See, there was this scavenger hunt among the tables (a table game) and my table won, so everyone got a Cashcard. Then later, during the table draw, my table number got drawn and everyone got another Cashcard. Then some teacher came over and told us that there was $22 in the card.

$22 x 2 =$44

Boy was everyone at my table happy then. :D

Pam looked nice in her dark red sari, and Ivy was wearing this pretty blue dress which looked kinda like mine, only blue. :D Which reminds me.... I wore the highest pair of heel that I have ever worn in my life: 2 and a half inches high! Ten cm! Man, they were tiring.

Whenever you walk, it's like walking on your toes. But they were really pretty; silver and all. Giselle commented that she and I were probably two of the few people wearing silver footwear. Most other people were wearing black.

My Gerri twin went and dyed all her hair light brown! Almost didn't recognise her at first! :P And Laura was wearing this really short, tight, one piece dress with a slit all the way up to her thigh!

The dress itself only came about halfway down her upper leg, and the slit itself went up to the top of her thigh, seriously. As Giselle said; very few people can carry off a dress like that, (and I agree) but given her figure, Laura could probably carry off anything!

Edison looked absolutely gorgeous. In a male sense, of course. :D He spiked up his hair like he used to in school, then he dyed the spikes brown. Looked even MORE like Clay Aiken than ever!! Then later, Giselle and I agreed that he looked even better than Clay Aiken. :D Seriously, the suit he was wearing even reminded me of Clay in his American Idol performances... speaking of his suit, he said it cost over $400. That's a BOMB, but hey, he turned out gorgeous. :D

Saw Wai Lun, Khai Yee, Felita, Soon Aik, Airine and Erlinda when I stepped out of the ballroom for a while. Wei Seng and Dawn too.

Wai Lun looked so cute in his suit, haha. I think it had a brown shirt, and the usual black trousers. If I remember right, he had a light yellow tie with it too. So cute. :P No matter what he does, he'll always look cute to me, I think; he just has that little 5-year-old boy kinda face! :P

Khai Yee was wearing a green dress, and Soon Aik looked really beautiful; I loved her necklace! And her hair. :D She liked my shoes, but they hurt. Haha. :P I liked Airine's shawl too; was white and had a bit of blue in it... I can remember what it looked like, but can't describe it! :P

Felita and Erlinda appeared while Khai Yee, Soon Aik, Airine and I were taking a picture. Erlinda had the same dress as me! :P But her hair was really nice. And I think her heels were probably the same height as mine, haha. :D Can't remember what Felita was wearing, but she looked pretty, and she said I looked sweet. :D

Dawn had this brown dress on, and she had a choker around her forehead, I think. It was sparkling a lot from where I could see her. :P She looked like one of those princesses out of the Arabian nights stories... :D

Managed to spot John pretty late into the whole event. He had this brown jacket on and I think it was a black shirt underneath with a light yellow tie. Looked really spiffy. :D

Saw Wei Jian when I came out of the ballroom when the whole thing was over. He was wearing the normal black trousers and a white shirt.... you know, one of those shirts with, um... like pleats on the lower half on either side? Yeah, he was wearing one of those.

I saw Mark too! Haha. He looked really smart too; another brown jacket and suit combi. Looked suspiciously like John's, but Mark's jacket was darker. Lol. :P

Oh, and it was Genevieve's birthday! I couldn't really see properly in the light, but her dress was either pale yellow or white. It was very matching with Zahid's white suit!

People just look so different when they're out of uniform!! :D

Woo... 2 am.

Should go to sleep now.

Gonna go for alumni band this Saturday, but I'm wondering if there are any other clarinetists from my batch there. Not very close to my seniors.... :P

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Well, now my A-levels are officially over.

Not that I (or any of the Lit students, for that matter) were all that much bothered with the last paper, though. Lol. :P

Hmm.... was just thinking about last night...

Ever seen a clear night sky before?

It's really beautiful. Like last night's sky.

I'm not sure which way my house faces, but there was a wind last night- pretty cold wind too- and it was blowing from the back of my house, pushing the clouds with it and all the clouds were just piling up in the sky in front of my house.

You know how clouds sometimes look pinkish at night?

Yeah, so there was this huge mass of... pale-pink cotton wool hanging in the deep blue sky and around the back of my house, where the sky had been completely cleared of all the clouds... man.

When the sky's clear, you can see all the stars that're up there, and I don't know about most people, but for me it's just fascinating.

It's only the second time in my life that I've seen a night sky so clear; so clear that you can see every single star up there, and there're so many of them that even those that aren't shining all that brightly enough to be clearly seen, you can see them; these really tiny pinpricks of light that don't really twinkle since they can't be seen all that well. They just seem to shimmer, really. Like they're stuck in the fabric that's the sky and the fabric happens to have glitter on it. Really fine glitter.

It's times like these I wish I had a camera at hand.

But then again, maybe it'd be too dark and the picture wouldn't be able to develop. Sigh.

I managed to see Orion for the first time in a long time. I haven't gone outside to look at Orion in ages. Not since late last year, I think.

I've never seen the stars in Orion shine so brightly, or clearly, for that matter. The three stars in the "belt" were just twinkling away for all their worth and I'd have stayed out there the whole night if my neck wasn't getting tired from staring straight upwards like that.

The sky this morning was beautiful too. Must've been some leftover from last night. :) To summarise, from out my window it looked like the sky was just one large... tank of light-blue-dyed water hanging up there and someone had put light pink cotton wool in it. And the cotton wool was just drifting all over the place. :)

Sometimes I wish I had some kind of artistic talent.

I wish that whatever I can see I could paint or draw; sometimes the things that I imagine, I wish I could give them form on paper; in a form with colour, not with words.

I can do it with words, I can write, but it's never enough.

I want to draw it, paint it, or do something...

I want to be able to see it, you know?

I want to be able to look at it and see something that I could only see in my head looking back at me, and I want other people to see what I saw and maybe they didn't.

I want to bring it to life, and words just aren't enough.

But they're all I have, so... I guess I'll stick with my writing.

That's it.

My A-levels are unofficially over.

Unofficially, coz next Thursday's actually my last paper, but I can't study for that one since it's an unseen paper. And all the Lit students feel the same way too, so we're all just sorta ignoring our last paper.... :P

After dinner, I was just wandering about the house, doing nothing, and for a minute, I was just thinking about how great it was to be doing absolutely nothing.

I mean, doing nothing, just pottering about aimlessly, lazing around; it feels WONDERFUL!!

For once, I don't feel guilty about wasting time that could be spent studying or whatever..........

Man, this is what two weeks of mugging does to you... haha. :P

Gonna see if I can book tickets for the Lord of the Rings trilogy marathon screening tomorrow.

12 hours; from 9 am to 9.30 pm.

Woohoo... that's gonna be damn fun!! :D

Tomorrow, I'm gonna start on all the writing that I put on hold for the A's.

It's a lot of writing. :D

So excited! :D

I have only ever been late for a major exam twice in my life, and both those times, thanks to luck, I turned out not to be late after all.

But today was seriously a close shave. :S

The first time was my SAT paper; I woke up at 7 plus, I think, and I thought that reporting time was 8!

I reached school at about 8.10 and found out that reporting time was actually 8.30, so yeah, that one was okay.

But today, my Lit paper was at 8 am, and I got that mixed up with tomorrow's Geog paper which starts at 2 pm!!

I thought that today's paper was at 2!!

Geez, thank goodness my dad woke me up before he left the house and I came downstairs to check my timetable.

I saw the time for my Lit paper there and I was like, "Oh, S**T."

And it was 7.40 by then. :S

Good thing my dad hadn't left the house yet, so he got me to school and I managed to get into the exam hall about 30 seconds before the official start of the paper. :P

I am one seriously lucky girl.

Let's just hope that luck doesn't run out any time soon!! :P

Aw, man.........

The All Blacks lost the semi-final..... :(

Oh well. I guess it would hard to beat the three-years-in-a-row defending champions. :P

Still, I guess they put up a pretty good game, even though their form was kinda off.... Needless to say, well, Australia was pretty fantastic. :)

Well, third-placing game next week: NZ vs France.

Both John and I say that France is going down!!!!! :D

Something tells me that today's entry's gonna be a long one. On Thursday night, I started thinking about friends after Kevin messaged me good luck for my Geog, and I've decided that it'll make a nice rant for my blog.

Friends are strange things.... I mean that in the nicest possible way, really.

I think I'm kind of a pathetic person, really; for one thing, I believe that I have pretty low EQ. I can be extremely insensitive at times and most of those times, I don't particularly care.

So on occasions when I suddenly realise how many friends I've got, it surprises me, seriously.

Like on my birthday when Jo and Beatrice messaged me after I hadn't heard from them in one and a half years, man, that was shocking. Shocking and really nice to know that they'd gone through Pam to get my number just so that they could message me "happy birthday" and everything.

And then when I walked around school there were other band people like Dawn and Kevin with more "happy birthdays" and Pam and John messaged me first thing that morning to say "happy birthday" too.

It was kinda overwhelming.

And up till last year, I don't think anyone had ever told me that they missed me before.

I think at that time it was after band on a Saturday, Khai Yee happened to message me and she said something along the lines of "Hi, how's life, etc, etc, I've missed you."

The last three words kinda confused me right then and there, I tell ya. The first thing that came to mind was "Why would anyone miss me?"

By the way, I'm still not too sure why.

And one of the things that scares me the most in this world is the thought of losing friends. Well, not really friends in general, but just the ones that really matter, like Pam and Sylvia and John, most importantly, after which follows almost the whole 2003 J2 population of the band.

Sometimes I get terrified, for no stupid reason at all, that just coz I haven't talked to Pam or Sylvia or John for ages, they're gonna abandon me and ignore me the next time they see me, or maybe they'll have found someone else better than me or maybe they'll think that I can't be bothered with them anymore or something like that.

And then out of nowhere, sometimes I get little messages that they're still there and seriously, I think most of the time, that's the only thing that keeps me semi-sane.

Pam seldom messages me, unless it's really important, but I don't really think it's her messages that matter. For a period of time last year, I was kinda worried that she'd forget about me and all that, but now I think I've got over that.
Somehow I no longer believe that how often or how seldom she messages matters anymore; I just know that she does care, and trust me, that means almost literally the whole world to me.

Sylvia forwards all sorts of silly messages to me and it's really nice to know that she remembers me! I'd probably get worried if she stopped messaging! I feel kinda guilty for not messaging her as often, but when I do I try to send her those really nice ones.... haha.

Pam and Sylvia are probably two of the best people in the world to talk to; between the three of us, we could talk about absolutely anything, I tell ya. :D

Hm... about John, it actually surprises me that I could make such a good friend in slightly more than a year. He's the second person in the list of five boys whom I'll try very hard to go and see off when they leave for NS; he probably knows who three of the other four will be (and for that matter, Pam probably knows too. :P). He won't know who the last person is, but that's simply coz he doesn't know the guy.

John is seriously one of the most thoughtful people that I've ever met in this life, and just about the only guy that I've talked to about well, "guy" problems. Haha. It's usually the sorta thing that girls would talk about amongst girls, but I think John's a great listener. John's probably one of those people who were put on Earth so that everyone else could have someone who'd listen.

And then there are other people like Dawn and Kevin and Soon Aik, whom I don't talk to all that much, but they pop up every now and then, most of the time sending messages that are a really nice pick-up for the day. Those usually come out of the blue since I don't usually expect messages from them, like Kevin's good luck message. (Kevin, if you're reading this, thanx again! :D)

I've always sucked at writing conclusions for my essays. And even when I'm just ranting, I can't think of a proper conclusion. Damn, I'm pathetic. :P

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Hm...last night's study was probably one of the most fun that I've had... lol.

John's friends are a real bunch of comedians; they're really fun! :D

Anyway, surprisingly, there weren't many people in school; I saw less than twenty in all, in the canteen and outside the library.

Strange. I thought there'd be more people there, given how close we are to the exams and everything, but I guess some just prefer to stay at home where everything is. That way, they won't have forgotten to bring something along with them and not be able to study it.

Lalala....had consultation today and I got paid for my first "tuition" lesson after that. Lol.

I was teaching Daphne and Dhanya on Atmosphere, and then later they went to eat lunch and Daphne treated me for teaching her Geog... lol. :D

Maybe I'll give tuition for Geog in future. I need to work on explaining skills though.... :P

Going back to school later for night study. Gonna ask John to explain a whole lot of Econs stuff to me.

I hope I'm not getting tiresome. :S

5 days to A levels.

The gods help us all.

I don't know what I'm doing.

I still don't really feel anything about my A-levels, which tells me that I'm in deep s**t.

Wasted half the day yesterday watching the two Lord of the Rings movies and suddenly, the Elvish makes sense.

I mean, I'm starting to see the err....link?...between the Elvish that they're saying and the English subtitles.

I should be studying.

Damn it.

All right, that's it, I'm getting off the computer.

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Forgot to write a post for Graduation Day.... :P

Anyway, this Thursday was the last day that I was officially part of a class and all that... Sigh.

Edison came in late, and when he did show up, the class sorta chided him for being late.... A lot of the girls had been afraid that he wouldn't make it for the ceremony. :P

Then he said that he got all of us roses, and when he brought them out, man, you could just see all the girls melting. :P

It must be such a burden to be the only guy in class. :P

No more school...... and I miss it already. Sigh.

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Woohoo.... got in about 2 hours 15 mins of study in the library yesterday.

My sister has decided to buy Clay Aiken's new CD. Some of the songs are pretty nice, if I do say so myself.

And by the way, has anyone seen Ruben Studdard anywhere? Nope. Haha. :P

Face it, the bloody votes were rigged, Clay should've won, doesn't this prove it??

Lol... all right, think I'll stop there at my insult parade; I risk incurring the wrath of any random rabid Ruben fangirl who may happen to stumble upon this humble little blog.

(3 Rs in a row. Alliteration. I did it again. :D)

X-Men: Evolution later at 11.00 and Mutant X at 5.00.

Everwood tomorrow, lalala.....

I'm bored.

Must get some work done in the afternoon after cartoons. :P

I am cold.

It rains for half the day, and you still turn the air-con on full blast in the bloody LT??

And we're talking about LT 4 here, one of the renovated LTs, so obviously the air-con's all the more bloody powerful.

Geez, doesn't anyone have brains???

I mean, okay, we can bring jackets and everything, but to save everyone the trouble and to save their own energy bill, why don't they just the air-conditioning down a notch??

All right, enough ranting for now....

Today's been a pretty good day, anyway. Apart from it being pretty cold, that is.

Lalala....gonna get my butt into the library (and freeze again. Damn.) and start studying now.

23 days to A levels.

7 days till the last day of school. Till graduation day. Till my last day of formal schooling. Till the last day that I'm formally part of a class.

Geez, the thought's kinda freaky.

And sad at the same time.

GP essay for the mock was quite good.... turns out that they gave us the HCJC Prelim essay paper.

It was so much better than our paper; I mean, broader range of topics and everything.

So, all this results in the fact that today, I wrote the best GP essay that I've written in ages. The last three that I wrote for Mock 1, Mock 2 and Prelims sucked. The last good GP essay that I wrote was in CT2, and seriously, I was surprised at what I wrote. Lol.

I'm hungry.... wondering if I should go for Lit extra class later.

Showed Pam my new phone in Geog lect this morning; she and Ivy both thought it was really nice. :D And according to Daphne, apparently, 2100 is the only model that has a flashing rythmic backlight. I didn't know that. And I'm not very sure that it's true. :P

But, anyway, I still like my phone. :D

GP mock on Friday was pretty good!

I thought it was really easy, and they should've set that paper for the Prelims rather than that lousy Prelim paper that they gave... The Prelim paper sucked. Even Ms Fernandez agreed that it was very clumsily set.

Seven of us went out for lunch after the paper; pizza was nice. :D After that, window shopping for a while..... although I still insist that window shopping has to be the most enjoyable form of torture ever invented by man.

I mean, going around staring longingly at things that you can't buy?? Close enough to torture for me......

But I did see nice Quiksilver pencilcases though... and they're almost as nice as the 37 Degrees ones that I saw. And slightly cheaper too.

And I got a new phone yesterday!!!

It's not a great colour phone or anything; it's just a humble little 2100. But it has all the basic functions (and a little more than what my old phone had) and it's smaller, lighter and nicer than my old one!

Then again, as Pam pointed out, anything would be smaller than that ancient phone of mine. Haha.

And yeah, me being the lame person that I am, I had to message Pam and John and tell them that I had a new phone.... haha.

Oh well. So far, it's been a good weekend. :D

Everwood later at 6 pm today. :D

GP mock after school.

After that, about half my class wants to go out for pasta.

I said I was broke, and so did a lot of other people, but apparently, the un-broke population of the class are very enthusiastic to lend the broke population money just so that we can all go out and stuff our faces after the GP paper.

Forgive me if I sound sarcastic, but really, I just meant it in good humour. I just can't be bothered to add a smiley to the end of that.

Plus, my class seems to be obsessed with the fact that it's 30% off....

A Hawaiian pizza will cost a little under $5 after the discount thing.

Maybe I will go after all. :D

Got all my results back. Passed everything (except Maths, which is something that I expected), though not nearly as well as I'd like to have done.

Watched the Romeo and Juliet tape yesterday. Still think it's a damn waste that I've never done R&J in my life. It seems a lot simpler than any other Shakespeare text I can think of. Then again, Julius Caesar was pretty simple already, once I got the hang of it, that is.

I now think that Shakespeare may be vitamin-enriched chicken soup for the literary soul. Coz after watching that yesterday, I suddenly had all these poetic lines popping into my head; was in a very good "writing mood", but had to resist coz I have to study.... DAMN!!

Have extra GP class today after school, till three again. Gonna stay abck and study for a while. Still considering when I wanna start staying back for night study, though.

32 days to A levels.

Let's end on that depressing note, shall we?

Night study's starting again today.... I'll be going home straight after that extra Lit lecture, coz I'm kinda sick of school today, and anyway, I have to transcribe yesterday's Everwood ep by today so that my sis can use that tape for tomorrow night's airing of "Romeo and Juliet".

If I watch it tomorrow night, that'll be the seventh time in my life that I've watched it. And it's a damn waste that I've NEVER done "Romeo and Juliet" for Lit in my whole life!!

Anyway, it was a little freaky when I saw the advertisement on TV last Friday when I got back from school; I was studying my Lit in the library and out of the blue, I just thought of "Romeo and Juliet". Y'know, the "modern" version. Leonardo DiCaprio and Claire Danes.

And when I got home, the ad was there on the TV. I swear my eyeballs popped a little. :P

Life sucks right now.... I don't feel like doing ANYTHING, not even studying, and I SHOULD be studying!!

Crap.

Well, while I'm at it, just a few shout-outs to my few favourite people in the world.....

Pam: Hello!!! I know I just saw you about 20 minutes ago in Econs lect, but hi anyway. Haha. Feels nice to say hi and everything, so, yeah! :P

Sylvia: HI!!!! We haven't met in erm... eons, and I miss ya!! Pam, you and me need to get together and go out after our As... will you be having exams then??

John: Haven't seen you around for days, and it feels like AGES! Lol. Is it normal for someone to miss her friends this much?? :P Anyway, that's what SMS is for; I got your message the other night, btw; I didn't reply coz I was asleep! Sorry! :P

Aleksei and Dmitri: Hey, how are you guys? Dmitri told me that I don't have to type Russian, so I won't.... haha. I don't know Russian, anyway!! :P I might want to learn someday, though. Hope it's all going well where you are!

Luis and Eva: Just a quick one; good luck to Luis, and Eva, it's great that you're learning fast.... I won't have to type Spanish here! And that might be a good or bad thing, since my Spanish is already getting worse and worse with disuse..... :P Gracias, btw, for Saturday, and keep an eye on your brother, haha. That photo that you sent me, she looks a bit possessive.... she might kidnap him while you ain't looking. Just kidding. :P

All right, that's it then. Ta. :D

Last night's first ep of Dark Angel was great!!!

Ha....mainly due to the presence of Jensen Ackles, I think. :P

Lalala....have to stay back in school for an extra GP lesson till 3!!! Crap. If there wasn't the stupid GP lesson, school would've ended at 12.30!

Damn.

Apparently, John has an extra GP lesson too, so I'll see if he feels like staying back to study after it...

Think I might be staying till about 4 anyway.

Sigh....lalala....think I shall go home today and transcribe Everwood for an hour to destress. :P

Or I could watch Dark Angel again. :P Got it on tape. :D

Well, aside from the A's being 41 days away and everything, school now is fantastic. :P

I mean, come on, I end at either 12.30 or 1.10 nowadays, as compared to my previous timetable when my earliest day was 3.50 and my latest was 5.50!!

It feels great!! I mean, I have about 4 or 5 lessons a day, and the day just ends SO early!!

But I'm staying back in school till about 5 everyday, anyway, to study. I've decided that I definitely cannot study at home, so staying in school till 5 is a good way to get in at least four or five hours of study a day. :)

Wednesday shall be by weekday TV day; Saturday can be my weekend one.

Coz as of this Wednesday, today, there'll be Charmed at 10 pm and Dark Angel at midnight. :D

Granted that most of the time I'll probably have to tape Dark Angel and watch it another day, seeing's as it's on so late, but that doesn't matter! :D

Woohoo!!! Lookie!!

I changed the template!

Looks much nicer than that orange one, but I couldn't change the archives, so the archived posts will still appear on that ugly orange template... :(

One of these days I'll sit down and figure out how to change that. :D

Only problem with this template is that there's supposed to be a *gif of bubbles popping at the top, but most of the time, that picture just disappears.

Oh well. Can't have everything, can we? :P

I think I'll put the tagboard back in. Maybe at a later date. Kinda lazy now since I've been staring at lines and lines of code for about half an hour. :P

~~PRELIMS ARE OVER!!!~~

And that makes me the happiest crayon in the box. :D

Okay, that expression doesn't sound right, coz technically, it's impossible for a crayon to be happy, but heck, I don't care!

It sounds happy enough, anyway, that's all I need. Haha. :P

And anyway, today's Econs paper was really good! Case study and DRQ was pretty easy; MCQ was a bit of strain on the brain, but I think I got through it okay. :D

This has to be the best Econs papers that I've ever taken. :D

Still pondering whether or not I wanna go for alumni band tomorrow. It's pretty late, and plus, no one that I'm reasonably close to has confirmed that they're going yet.

John and Pam aren't free, and Soon Aik and Dawn are still considering; Dawn said that Xiao Chuan's going though. I don't mind Xiao Chuan, he's a nice guy.

Lalala.....guess I'll see about it tonight, then. :)

As for the rest of today.... I'm gonna finish the lovely novel that I'm reading right now, and will probably go on a writing spree for the weekend. My head's bursting with a few ideas that I had to restrain myself from writing during the exam, coz if I start, I usually don't stop till about a few hours later....

Couldn't infringe on valuable study time, could I? :P

Right, gonna go have fun now.

Oh yeah, note to Kong Wen if he drops by here: Good luck for your papers! I think you told me that they start in October or something, I can't really remember when, just that they're after mine. Anyway, all the best! :)

Okay, well, I've just decided that it isn't such a bad thing that my sister brought home that novel... at least she brought it back when my really tough papers were already over.

Just had geog paper 2 today; it wasn't bad at all, but I guess it could've been better.

Next paper's on Wednesday; Lit paper 8. Since it's impossible to study for that paper, that means that technically I have about three days to catch up on some Maths formulae for Thursday's paper and to do some MCQ for Econs on Friday.

And after that, bye bye Prelims.

And hello to anxious waiting for the bloody results.

Life sucks. :P

But hey, I guess it could be worse. :)

Please, whatever higher powers are out there, SAVE ME!!!

My sister is turning me into a Leonardo DiCaprio fan!!!!

The absolute horror of it all!

Well, okay, I mean no offence to him or his fans, all right?

I swear, I was never a fan before, despite the fact that the year I was 14, I was dragged into the school library and forcibly made to sit down with five different groups of friends five different times and made to watch "Romeo and Juliet" with them... well, five times.

It's just a pity that our batch didn't do R&J for Lit...I could at least have put that tape to some use; trust me, watching it five times is enough to memorise the entire text of R&J.

Anyway, back to the point.

It might've been a mistake to tape "Man in the Iron Mask" that night. I do have a thing for the tragic, lonely kinda characters in stories, and Philippe is just this poor sweet little thing that got locked up in prison for 6 years, so hey, he fits that description....

Damn it.

I'm getting an idea for a fanfic there; something along the lines of Athos and Philippe's father-son relationship.

As with all my other stuff, it will turn out angsty, but since it's a father-son thing, maybe a little fluffy on the side.

I make it sound like a pancake.

"Fluffy on the side"..... *rolls eyes*

Another bad thing: my sis managed to find the "Man In the Iron Mask" novel in her school library and brought it home...

The problem with me is that I can't stay away from any kind of book that looks even mildly interesting.

So I'm reading instead of studying for my Prelims. Again. Like I did during my CTs.

Study, you stupid girl!!

Crap. My screwed-up life.

Just had my second Lit paper. Was pretty good, much better than the Shakespeare paper, that's for sure. :P

Anyway, the best part was that I spotted "Ariel" for the Plath section of the paper, and guess what, it came out!!

Haha... I definitely did the context question, of course. I always do context for Plath, anyway!

I actually intended to do context for all three questions, but surprisingly, the only context that I did was Plath. I did essays for both Pinter and API.

Just like the Shakespeare paper; intended to do three contexts, but ended up doing three essays instead. The weirdest thing.

Also, I realise that I forgot to type an entry on Tuesday after my Phys Geog paper.

It was fantastic, btw. :D

Man, when I was doing it, I felt like I knew the answers for everything! I knew exactly what to write, what diagrams to draw; for the first time ever in my life, I knew what it felt like to literally have everything at your fingertips. :D

I now have three whole days and the rest of today to study for human geog. Gonna work hard at it and get a really good grade for geog this time!!

Everything seems to be going so well for this exam; I'm glad it counts, since it's Prelims and all that. I just hope my luck holds out.

Remember how I was panicking over why I didn't seem to be the least bit anxious over my Prelims?

I'm starting to wonder now if somehow, something inside me knew that there was no need to panic. :P

Still, it seems a lil' overconfident to say that....

So I'll put all my energy now into panicking for the A levels (in a good sense, of course) and I shall try and finish about two whole units of Econs MCQ before the MCQ paper next Friday!

I've gotta try and get at least.... I'll set the target at 23- for MCQ. MCQ counts for 30% after all; that's a a lot, and it's easy to get those marks, so I'm gonna get them! :P

I will not talk about today's Econs and Lit papers.

Okay, suffice to say that they sucked.

But actually, not as much as usual.

I actually wrote twice as much as I normally write for Econs essays, and the only thing that really sucked in Lit was the "Othello" question.

Oh well. Guess that'll have to do for now... still have two more papers to do for both those subjects, anyway. The grades are still salvageable.

Damn, I said that I wouldn't talk about it!!

Moving on now.

Yesterday, a new show replaced Gilmore Girls.... apparently it ended its current season last week and I wasn't even aware that I was watching the last ep of it. I didn't even know there was supposed to be a new show either at that time slot on Sundays.

Singapore needs to cut down on weekday TV show ads. Spare some thought for the weekends!!

Anyway, new show. It's called Everwood, about life in this small little town called Everwood in Colorado.

Man, it's beautiful.

This tiny little town nestled the Rockies....it's really beautiful. I hope it's a real place. I might wanna migrate there when I get older.

Maybe I'll go look it up.

The characters are really sweet people too. And there's Gregory Smith on it. Reasonably good-looking guy; remember the main character in "Small Soldiers"? Yeah, that was him.

(Remember how I said that all the good-lookers were coming out of the woodwork at an accelerated rate too??)

I've worked it out; as of Sept 24, I'll be watching 5 hours of TV a week.

An increase of two hours. 5 hours of TV in a week sounds like too much to me when you consider that I should be studying for the A's in two months time.

Have to stop thinking about TV. 5 hours. That's it. No more increases in TV time, except maybe to fit in the odd documentary or Monday/Friday/Saturday/Sunday night movie if it's good.

Speaking of Sunday night movies. Channel 5 aired "Man in the Iron Mask" last night.

I've never watched the whole thing before; when it first opened in cinemas here, I wasn't interested in it, and when they first premiered on TV, all I caught was the first half of it.

Anyway, it was a nice one. Loved the ending though.

Rife with so much political drama and entanglements yet positively quite heart-wrenching. Philippe was a really poor thing though.

You try going from spending six years of your life in a disgusting, completely unsanitary prison, straight to being a king and having to rule a country.

I bet it ain't pretty.

I mean, I guess the change in the view and surroundings isn't so bad, plus there's a major elevation in your status and the quality of the food that you're eating, but still.... ruling an entire country as big as France after you've been in jail for six years?

Something tells me that Philippe didn't exactly practise for it by ordering the rats in his cell around.

Odd. I've been sane for three days in a row now. :P

Saturday.

My official TV day since it's the only day of the week with anything worth watching. In my opinion.

Small bonus: Next week's X-Men Evolution ep is a Pietro ep. Too much Quicksilver is not a good thing for a girl like me, but hey, we all love stuff that isn't good for us, don't we?

Doesn't it make you wonder if humans aren't just a little naturally masochistic in some way?

Slightly bigger bonus: Today's Mutant X ep was a Jesse ep. Yahoo. :D Nice to see the guy get all uptight and everything.... Yeah, I tend to be a little sadistic. I enjoy seeing my favourite characters getting emotionally wound up and screwed up (remember?).

Large bonus: My sis was on the Channel 5 website today, and FINALLY..... Singapore has bought the second season of Dark Angel, and it's being slotted in at midnight on Wednesday (Sep 24), taking over once Buffy finishes its current season.

The good thing about this is that I'm finally gonna get to see some of the season 2 eps that I've wanted to see for TWO YEARS. (Jumps and dances around the room before returning to the computer, reasonably saner)

The bad thing is.... Jensen Ackles is in season 2. As a regular, not like the guest appearance that he made in season 1 when he played Ben. Now he's back and playing Ben's twin, Alec, and the problem with that is.....

Well, he's just very good-looking. :)

All the cute guys are definitely coming out of the woodwork at an accelerated rate. And they're picking a bad time to do it.

Oh well.

We can't all have what we want.

Which brings me to him.

Yeah, that um..."special someone" who doesn't know he's my "special someone".

The thought of him depresses me nowadays.

Maybe it's just 'cause lately I've started to see the impossibility that he could ever like someone like me. Or maybe I think too lowly of myself.

Whatever it is, my thoughts today seem to revolve around this:

Humans love what we shouldn't have, and we want what we can't have.

Another reason why the end of the world is probably near.

I just hope I'm not around to see it.

Although I admit it would be interesting. :)

I seem to be pretty sane today.... so let's end it there while I still have a grip on my sanity. :)

No extra geog class today, so I got home early on a Thursday for the first time in a long time! :D

Today's definitely a good day. :)

What else to say...?

Oh yeah, when I got back up to class earlier today, I found Edison advising the girls on what to wear from grad night...

Edison, of all people.

And frankly, his dress advice made sense. Seriously.

It's at times like these that I really start to lose hope for the only boy in my class... haha. :P But he's a nice guy, and actually, I think he's very much still a guy. :D

And I suppose girls would like a guy with good taste, anyway! :D

I had my glasses (well, the lenses) changed on Tuesday.

Degree's increased. Damn.

And yesterday, when I stepped out of school, it was just kinda amazing.

Everything was just so bright and clear and sharp, and the trees across the road, I could actually see individual leaves instead of some green mass sitting atop a trunk. :P

Man, that had to be what it's like for blind people to see. :D

Woohoo.....GP Prelim is tomorrow.

Gonna go home and read my Anthony Giddens sociology text for the rest of the day; the last time I did that for the mid-year exam, it helped! :D

Was watching yesterday's Smallville and hey....Jeremy Lelliot is pretty cute. :D

And I realised on Saturday that Forbes March on Mutant X is pretty cute too. :P

And I'm starting to wonder, why is it that all the good-looking guys seem to be coming out of the woodwork now when I need to concentrate on studies?!

I swear, I'm jinxed.

And oh yeah, I've finally realised something.

You know how everyone always asks what kind of guys/girls you like? Depending on which gender you are, that is.

I've finally figured out what kind I like (I think) and I don't think the prognosis is very good.

I seem to like guys who, well, look pretty okay, but they tend to be a little... err... vulnerable?

Is that the right phrase for it??

Oh well. Seems to fit.

I mean, there tends to be something which isn't altogether "right" about them. I don't mean that they're off in the head or anything, just that they seem to be missing something or other. In the sense that there's something... which didn't maybe go too well in the past.

I see this kinda pattern in all my favourite characters in shows and books too.

I like all the emotionally distraught, mentally screwed-up characters.

Even the characters on TV shows; somehow even the good-looking ones don't come across as being just good-looking to me; for some reason I still see some kind of vulnerable quality to them and I have no idea why.

Man, I knew I was a screwed up kid.... :P

I have finally found motivation. :D

From now on, I shall work towards getting into the School of Psychology at Monash University; it's about the only thing that I really want right now, and I think that's a good thing. :)

Oh well. :)

I'm thinking about using myself as a poster girl for the 15-hour school day or something.... I'm in school at 7, classes are from 8 am to 3.50 pm today, extra geog class will be from 4.30 to 6 pm, and night study will be from 7-10 pm. 15 hours.

I'm nuts.

But at least now there's a point to all this insanity. :D

School was suspended today; how cool is that?!? :D

Must've been all that construction going on with the new block; the electric system (that doesn't sound like the appropriate word for it, but nothing else is coming to mind right now) needed upgrading, and today, they just couldn't get anything to work! :D

Except for J block, that is. Our block was the only one in the whole school that had electricity. :P

So, well, we couldn't possibly have lectures or do much else without electricity, so yeah, school was suspended for today! :D

And Tuesday's my longest day of the week too......YES!!

Meeting John and Wei Jian later at TP Mac's to study, since night study at school's been cancelled tonight.

Same electricity problem. :D

While we're at it, I'm still thinking about Violet's idea of dinner on Friday with some other band people and group Maths study after.

Friday...don't have much money with me now; I don't even wanna think about how much will be left at the end of the week.

Well, I never have much money, anyway. :P

Note to self: Must find a way to increase my weekly allowance. :P

There. Is. Something. Wrong. With. Me.

There has to be!!!

Why the hell don't I feel the LEAST bit anxious about prelims even though they're in less than three weeks?!?

Why am I NOT worried about the A levels when they're in less than three months?!?!

What is WRONG with me?!?!

Night study. Haven't stayed back for that in a very long time and I kinda forgot how fun it could be studying in the library.

No, seriously. I"m not kidding.

It's really nice to study there at night. It's quiet and everything, and it helps you concentrate really well.

Pastamania...7-inch Hawaiian Pizza for dinner. Was very nice. I'm adding Pastamania to my list of nice places to eat at. :D

By the way, I think I've really lost it.

I don't understand the poem that I wrote in last Wednesday's entry.

I don't understand it, mainly because I can't remember what the hell I was feeling when I wrote it!

Man... I must be more twisted than I thought if I can't understand myself.... O.o

John has kindly suggested that I have a split personality.

Well, I always knew I wasn't completely sane. This proves it. :P

I've always said that I'm already halfway round the bend, and I'm going to crack before I'm 25. I seriously believe that.

I don't want to live past 30 right now. Life seems too boring after 30.

I was inking last week's Lit lecture notes earlier today, and there was this one point that I scribbled down which the lecturer mentioned.

"Can friendship compete with romantic love?"

Ever watched those cliched movies and read those cliched stories where two best friends like the same person and then they fall out because of it?

I've read a lot of those online, and got tired of them; I never bothered finishing those.

But the question is...disturbing.

If I ever got a boyfriend at some time in the future, I wouldn't want to make him the centre of my life and forget completely about my friends.

And if that's the case, then who should get more attention? The friends? The boyfriend?

And then...there're specific, life (and opinion)-changing events that happen in all our lives. And when I looked at that question today, I think I could finally say "yes".

Yeah, I think friendship and romantic love can co-exist, but probably only in some very rare cases, usually with very understanding partners, I guess.

(Ever notice how much depends on the other party?? This is part of the reason why I believe that people are never really ever sure of exactly what they're getting into when they start a romantic relationship. :P)

Forget the cliched storyline where the two best friends fall out just coz they like the same person.

I've finally seen it happen in real life, and they're still good friends.

Maybe we don't give friendship enough credit. :)

My foot hurts.

Went to see doctor last night, and I have PILLS. For a foot problem.

Sounds a bit illogical, doesn't it??

Antibiotics to get rid of the infection and anti-inflammation pills.

3 pills to swallow three times a day.... I hate pills!! :S

But the really funny thing was that today, I ate lunch in school and I took the medicine then; I swear, that was the fastest I'd ever swallowed ANY pills. :P And it was three of at one go too! :P

Photo-taking today.... John's missing it coz he has his checkup today and he's not coming back to school coz he feels "flu-ish". Haha. That was in his own words. :P

My class has a lotta unwell people today.... I've just realised something very interesting about my class; when we're all healthy and all, we're fine, but once one person falls sick, the WHOLE class will start getting problems.

Man, are we a "united" class or what? :P

Night study starts this week. Gonna stay back on Friday or maybe tomorrow.

Bored.............................. bye for now.

I have just realised that Wednesday's entry.....was a little strange.

I have no idea what I was thinking then.... or maybe I've just forgotten what I was thinking then. But the poems looks good; maybe I'll just improve on it a little. :)

Lalala....nothing interesting happened today.

Well, other than the fact that there were no classes and school ended at about 10.30 am today, since it's National Day Celebrations.

Well, yeah, today's also officially the last day that I touched my clarinet. So sad... I removed all my reeds and cleaning paper and the little scented wooden ball that I put in my case. Now all that's in there is the swab and the polishing cloths; when I looked at it after I'd removed all my stuff, it looked so empty.

Which was, well, weird.

(Alliteration. Four "W"s in a row. Wow. :P)

Even if when I do buy myself a clarinet in the future, I'll never forget that one. It's the first clarinet that I ever touched and played, after all. :)

Think about love and hate for a while.

Hate is.... so much simpler. It just is.

And love, by contrast, is there in all its bloody varying degrees and extents; it's damned annoying. I hate love.

That sound ironical to you?

I don't care.

People say that love makes you want to be a better person.

Does it make you want to be a better person to try and please the person that you love? Or is it because you want to be "worthy" of that person? Or is it because you've made that person out to be too perfect?

What's the point of love if it only makes you hate yourself, then?


Craft your dreams like paper cranes
Wings that stretch
And never fly
Icarus laughs in Tartarus' blaze
For we all try to fly and fall
The wax burns
Melts its way through your fingers
And heart
This you crave you will not have
How you despise yourself
For what you are
But we all carve our own gods
Each grotesque and mocking
Such ridicule we bear
And in our blindness
We call it love

-Gerri, 6/8/03

Lalala.... nothing interesting happened today.

The only interesting thing that happened yesterday (well, okay, it wasn't really interesting; just of note, that's all. Haha.) was that I found out that Wei Jian cut his hair!!

Haha....he looks so different!

He's gone from floppy hair to spiky (well, sort of)..... This proves my theory that eventually, most boys will choose spiky haircuts. :D Or just shorter haircuts. :P

But seriously, it was slightly weird; I've seen him with his floppy hair for about one and a half years, and now with shorter hair....it's just strange! :P

Bored....

John had detention yesterday for not wearing tie....is that worthy of note? *Thinks* Well, it is a little harsh for just not wearing your tie... :S

But I guess if there aren't strict rules, no one's gonna pay any mind to discipline, yeah? :P

Bored..... have PE later. Not sure what we're gonna do for the lesson, and I'm not really sure I care all that much.

Oh well.

I don't have much homework or tests yet this week, so I'm gonna go home and start doing extra questions. Gotta start doing them today or I'll never get started! I've already been procrastinating over it for the past two weeks.... :S

Ah, well. Let's celebrate our shallow teenage values, shall we? :P

"If Death walked up to you one day, extended his hand, and said, "Let's go," would you?"

I think about what Mr T's question in last week's Lit tutorial, and I realise that I'd say yes.

I've always only had two perceptions of what Death would look like if he were a person.

He would either look like a young man, not particularly good-looking, but perhaps with a quietly confident air about him. Or he might look like an old man; a very warm, grandfatherly kind of old man.

I'd go, but the thing is, I'm not sure why.

It's been ages since I last wrote.... the only interesting thing that's happened this week was band investiture on Friday night. :)

It was so sad that I was stepping down, but it was strange that I was so happy that night.... It's the happiest I've ever been since....since my birthday, actually! :D

Everyone was just really happy; I guess it kinda rubbed off on everyone. :D

Took a trainees photo again; when I put the picture beside the one that we took last year, I know I was right; the boys have changed more than the girls. :)

There's something about band that just makes me believe without a single doubt that it's the best ECA in the whole school; I especially believe that there's no other ECA in the whole school that's as closely bonded as ours.

Oh yeah, Erlinda told me that my attendance was 97%. :D Along with three other people: Wei Jian, Wei Seng and Kai Lin. She told me that the four of us had 97% attendance while we were out at the bus stop. :)

And Channel 5 showed D2 yesterday evening!

D2 is excellent.... It's the best of all the three Mighty Ducks movies! I've loved those films ever since I was...what, 12?

Yeah, I think that's it....that was the first time that I saw thre first film; turned on the TV and D1 was on, I started watching halfway, but it was just really cool; couldn't turn it off. :D

When it ended, I wondered if there was a second one, and guess what? A year later, Channel 5 showed D2 and I watched it for the first time. :D

No use trying to play ice hockey here; Singapore only has one hockey team, and they don't take girls.

Sexist. And in this day and age too, for goodness' sake.....

Oh well. Nothing else to write (type).

Well, maybe I do wish that the Anaheim Mighty Ducks were actually as good as the team that they were named after. :P

Ta. :)

We should appreciate the little things in life...

Like a slab of sweet corn ice-cream between two thin waffle biscuits, and Famous Amos cookies, and green apple-flavoured Mentos.

Went walking around Orchard with Khai Yee and Sandy today; Khai Yee left at around four plus, so Sandy and I walked around a bit more; and I found my ideal pencilcase!!

It's at 37 Degrees and it's blue with black netting over it..... It's perfect, and it costs $12.90. :D

I shall buy it next week; hopefully it doesn't run out of stock or something by then.... I always get jinxed at stuff like this. :P

Yeah, you'll realise that the blog looks different now....

That's coz while I was editing it yesterday morning, I deleted a whole lot of HTML code, and the blog was messed up, so I had to change the template!!

And this template, as compared to the nice blue one that I had, just absolutely sucks.

For goodness' sake, it's orange.

I have a strong aversion to orange.

Orange only looks nice on oranges.

Have band later today. Supposedly, it's a make-up practice for Wednesday, so that means that band prac is still as usual tomorrow.

Just had the geog concept map test during the last period.

Wasn't too bad, considering that I only studied for it this morning, haha. I know that I'll definitely get 20 outta 25. :D

Bored....can't wait to get the day over with. I'm planning to be very busy on Saturday; have to get in some revision for Monday's Geog test and some time to do essay questions for Geog and Econs.

Gonna have consultation next period, and later on in the day there's double GP (save us, whatever gods are out there). Actually looking forward to band coz I'll get to see all the band people....

But then again, a lot of people might not want to come. Sigh. Oh well....

Thursday. Extra geog class later.... gonna reach home at six.....

Thursdays are always long days.

Hm...not much happened today; John finally finished what he was writing in my autograph book- is that newsworthy? :P

Bored. Lalala.....

Have two bloody geog tests to study for tomorrow. Concept map test and the bloody retest....

Think I'll focus on the retest. I hate essays, so I don't wanna get another retest on that!

School always ruins my planning...I planned to go home and do some essay questions so that I could hand them up to Mr Low during consultation tomorrow, but now I can't....have to study for the bloody tests.

Ha.....have just thought of something rather amusing.

My class just found out today that Giselle's new phone is the Samsung one with a rotating camera lens. Gerri (not me, the other Gerri in my class) and Karen were going nuts over it.

I was the first one to figure out how to "flip" the picture when you turn the lens to face you. :D Giselle wouldn't tell anyone, see....but I didn't need help after all, did I? :D

Must've taken about 5 pictures on her phone. :P Well, all of them have Gerri and Karen in them. Only two of them include Giselle and me. :)

Lalala...bored.

Think I shall go edit my wish list. :)

Yesterday was the BEST birthday of my life!!!

Dawn messaged first thing in the morning to say happy birthday, then Pam and John messaged before the geog test, and then during the test, Beatrice and Josephine messaged me too!!

Man, I haven't seen Beatrice and Jo for about a year, and I don't even have their numbers and they still wished me happy birthday!! I feel like the most happy, lucky, wanted person on the planet....haha.

I didn't even know that people considered me that worth remembering!!

Haha. I learn something new everyday. Lol.

Hm, as for my wish list, I now have a Quiksilver wallet (it's blue with the QS logo on it in white) and my dad gave me $20 in the morning yesterday, which covers Wish No. 6: "Money". :D

The wallet's from Pam, Sylvia and John, and apparently, Khai Yee helped them pick it out; and Pam and Sylvia also got me a necklace (Perlini's Silver, of course; everyone loves Perlini's! Haha....) with a pendant.

I still can't really decide if the pendant looks like a star or a flower, coz it's like a five-pointed star with rounded edges...but when you consider that, it looks more like a flower. :P

John also offered to treat me to dinner at Marche... Was a bit strange for me at first, coz nobody's ever treated me or anything like that, and furthermore, Marche's stuff is really expensive! Er, but he explained later that in his sec sch, it's the norm for people to treat bday people. :D

I was so stuffed last night.... and John told me that he'd actually budgeted for more! .....If I ate anymore last night, I'd have burst. The pizza did it, I think....it was really quite large... :P

Got more presents today!! Khai Yee gave me three presents!

Okay, well, they're three little presents, not huge ones....haha.

There's a self-made keychain (of a small wooden blue fish), a tealight holder with my name in fabric paint on the side (:D), and sweets! Strawberries and cream Campino and toffees! Yum. :D

The whole J2 cohort has a GP mock test today after school, but I don't really care about that so much.....haha. :P

I was so happy the whole of yesterday, and I think the happiness has spilled over into today!! :D

Woohoo...the geog test isn't today for my class, since we don't have a tutorial with Mr Saw today. It's tomorrow.

And everyone who had their test today had the one on Malthusian theory.... Haha.

Big hint. Shall go home and bank on that. :P

Man, my classes end at 1.10 pm on Mondays now, since I've dropped Chinese; it's so cool! Ending at 1.10....I've never had my day end at 1.10 before! Lol.

Anyway, meeting a whole lotta band people later for Math study group.... Gonna be quite fun, I guess! :D

Have had about six hours of sleep, and guess what.... I'm back. Haha.

Damn it, what the hell am I doing online??? I have a bloody geog test tomorrow!!

Sigh......

I've just realised that ever since SYF, I've had a lot of stuff going around in my head. Seems like a really belated realisation, given that SYF was so long ago, but really...

Gold for SYF.....that was possibly the first thing in all my life that I ever wanted SO badly. And we got a Silver.

It's one thing to know that you've tried your best..... and it's a completely different issue when you realise that it's still not enough.

It's like the whole world watching you; watching the effort of what, a few months squeezed into eight minutes--

This is the end, the result, after we tried so hard; some of us really did bleed for it; for some of us it's the biggest thing we've ever done--

It's like taking a piece of graphite, add an enormous amount of pressure, and somehow it turns into a diamond...and we tried to cut it, polish it, make it shine all that much more, but when we presented it, we found that all anyone thought was that it wasn't all that much better than what it started out as.

This is all your effort's worth.

Silver.

Sometimes I hate this world.

Sometimes I hate the way people treat each other.

Sometimes I hate myself.

Have been too busy for the past few days to get online....but the past few days have been pretty eventful. :D

First off, Wednesday:

Band ended at 5.30 pm (only 3 hours of band!! That's gotta be a record; haha) so that those ppl who were going for the SYF Finals could get there and be seated by 7.00 pm.

The inside of the Esplanade is really cool. I mean, I've never before in my life seen a concert hall with FIVE levels of seating! Oh yeah, I got a circle seat; a very good circle seat too; practically sitting directly over the stage, so I had a very good view!

I didn't think much of the first two bands (except perhaps that they were pretty large).

I know that I don't like AC, but their rendition of Vesuvius was fantastic!!! Can't really remember what their second piece sounded like, but I guess it was really good too.

TJ was after that, and their percussionists (those who were free, that is)danced as they played Japanese Graffiti!

Seriously, as much as I dislike AC, I think they deserved to win more than RJ.

Oh well.... Life's like that, yeah? Just coz RJ have won twice consecutively, they figure that they've gotta give it to them again....

Thursday's happenings:

Racial Harmony day celebrations.

For the first time ever in my life, I actually wore one of those ethnic costumes for the day. :P

It was this green Punjabi suit that Pam lent me for the day; I changed out of it after GP though, since that was my last lesson of the day, so I was in school U for the geog extra class.

Friday...:

Finally got those DRQs from Mr Low.....he keeps forgetting to pass them to me!! It's like something straight out ot "The Absent-Minded Professor"; speaking of which, that film's really old. I can't even remember exactly when it was that I watched it.

Zapped the back half of the 2001 Lit Paper 8 A level paper too.

I can safely say that I've planned my weekend pretty packed. :)

Oh yeah, had RWS after school; we were about to leave when Mr Fahy came into the seminar room and kept us a little longer, talking about some stuff and reading a (rather confusing) passage out of St Anselm's "Proslogion".

While he was talking, I had this strange fear that the library people would lock up the library and forget about the handful of us in the seminar room!

And guess what....when we opened the door of the seminar room, it was dark outside; we were locked in. Haha.

Oh well, someone saw us (the library doors are glass, see) and went to get the OM. Meanwhile, I kept myself amused by shouting and talking very loudly to all the other members; they did the same too when they caught onto what I was doing. :)

You see, when's the next time you're going to be able to talk loudly and shout while you're in the library?? :D

Yes, so I'm lame and it was a worthless cheap thrill. I still think that it was once-in-a-lifetime experience. :D

Saturday:

Band today. When we were asked to go out for sectionals, Erlinda pointed out that the whole trombone section wasn't here. I corrected her and said that Sandy was present, so that meant that one trombone player had come! :P

Anyway, we went up to the fourth level for sectionals, and Sandy came up all by herself; I thought it wouldn't be very nice to leave her alone when there were what, about nine people nearby? Namely my section, that is.

So I went over to the J block, and Soon Aik followed; we were trying to figure out how to play each others' instruments (she was trying to play my clarinet and Soon Aik and I were trying to play her trombone) when she said that Wei Jian was here too, so she wasn't alone after all! Lol. :D

Oh yeah, I can play the concert B flat scale on the trombone up till the sixth note! :D Although on the first note, my air speed tends to be too fast and a different note comes out.

Lol. For the first time ever, my air speed is too fast..... In the past I was always told that it was too slow! On the clarinet, that is, for the higher register.

Blah blah blah....today was actually kinda slack since Alvin wasn't around....he had to go for the NDP preview. Haha.... :D

Today's PE was fun!!

We had a sorta obstacle course thing, and for the first time in my life, I found what you're supposed to do on the "suicide window". :P

But the fun part was that it started raining really heavily halfway through the lesson.

The obstacle course was up on a hill (well, just on higher ground, really) behind the science block, and to get up there at the beginning of the lesson, we had to run up the concrete slope beside a drain.

So, when it was raining, we slid down that slope instead!! Man, that was fun!! :D

And we ran all the way back to J block; I bet anyone who saw us then thought we were mad. :D

Well, let's just say that I hope we do this for next week's PE. :D And if it's raining, it'll be even more fun!

But I'll be bringing a change of clothes, just in case. :D

Youth Day celebrations today.

It's only 11.51 am now, and school's over! Haha...cool. :D

It's a bit spastic when the school makes the band and choir sit up there on the stage to perform only two songs (national and college anthem), but on the bright side, we probably get one of the best views when the teachers start their performance! :D

Yeah, and the best part of the teachers' performance this year had to be when that new teacher fell off the stage; that had to hurt. :D Anyway, the whole school was laughing; teenagers have a morbid sense of humour, yeah? :D

Okay, the most stupid thing was that the organiser forgot that we were supposed to play the college anthem, so yeah, we only played one song. Even more spastic.

Throughout the long prayer service, I wanted so badly to sleep, but clarinets are all in the first row, so that means, no, couldn't sleep, coz everyone could see us.

Man, just for that what, one hour, I wanted to be a brass player or something. Percussion all disappeared behind the curtains; since they were out of sight, they could talk or sleep or do whatever they wanted!!

Trumpet did the same... and halfway through the prayer service, I looked back and saw the whole trombone section sleeping.... I wanted to sleep!!!

Yeah, I could see that Xiaochuan was trying to stay awake....haha. :D

Okay, now I'm gonna go figure out what I'm gonna do with the rest of my day. I feel like some kind of delinquent. Haha. :D

There's band tomorrow, which means that we've sorta had band for four days in a row. Wednesday was official practice, Thursday was just playing for that rehearsal, today (Friday) we played for the real thing, and tomorrow will be official practice again....

Feels like a more slack version of pre-SYF days....seeing everyone everyday. :D

It was rather stressful, all the consecutive practices and everything, but I didn't really mind that; I like the band people, after all.

I sorta miss those days.

And I'm gonna be stepping down in about two weeks....it's gonna feel really weird once my Wednesdays and Saturdays are free.

B!!!! I got a B for Maths!!! YAY!!!!!!

Oh, well, I made quite a lot of careless mistakes; I could've gotten an A....

Damn, now I'm just depressing myself-- shut up, you stupid little girl.

Haha, anyway, I've made up my mind that my Math grade is probably gonna be the best grade that I'm gonna get for mid-yrs. I think I'm gonna fail all my As.... Excuse my French: F***.

Ah, but seriously, Maths was damn easy!! It was just this year's work, after all, and let's face it, Stats and Probablity and DRV are damn easy crap.

My Math teacher just told my class yesterday that Paper 2 would be all Stats and Probability, so.....

Let's just say that I've made up my mind to bank on Stats and such, and to improve my Perm and Com. :D

Haha....when I think about it, maybe that study session with John and Wei Jian had some use... does anyone think it helps for AO Maths if you study with Maths C people???

*Thinks for a bit*

Need to work on Trigo. My trigo sucks. Proving and all that crap....when I used it for calculation in sec sch it wasn't that bad, but proving....have to work on that. Especially equations.

Band yesterday was fun....Alvin was in a good mood. Going for the SYF finals next Wednesday; finally gonna get to see what the Esplanade looks like! From the inside, I mean. I've seen enough pictures of the exterior. :P

Speaking of band...Soon Aik lent me one photo of the trainees; it was taken last year, and none of the girls have changed; except for me, but the only change is that I've left my hair long.

By contrast, all the three guys have changed. :D

Oh yeah, speaking of the photos, I actually asked Wei Jian to bring some for me too; I went up to him before sectionals started.....

The minute he turned around and saw me, he went, "Oh s**t, I forgot, oh- _______"

Fill in the blank with your choice of expletives.... that includes the F-word too. Haha.

Err, I just laughed, really! I mean, it was such a violent reaction!

Haha....relax, it's okay, it's not like you forgot to bring something that determines your entire life!! :)

Okay...nothing else to write; today's gonna be pretty boring.

Four periods of Lit. Not back to back, of course. I'd die otherwise.

Double GP at the end of the day....not really looking forward to that, coz we're doing corrections for the latest compre that we got back. Ms Fernandez is bound to scold us for something......

After that, rehearsal for SC investiture at 5.00 PM....bloody hell, why can't it be earlier so I can be excused from classes?!?

Damn.

And if it starts at 5.00 PM, can you imagine what time we'll be leaving???

Crap....

I swear, every single day of my life, I just depress myself.

On the bright side....no school tomorrow! Only Youth Day celebrations! :D

Today's subject: yesterday's PE. :D

Yesterday's PE was fun! Probably the most fun PE lesson I've had in ages, haha.

Well, it was filthy, but fun. :D

Filthy, reason being that since NAPFA's over and everything, and my whole class passed, we now have nothing much to do. So, Isaac Lim decided to take our class on a bit of outdoor activity.... Got a bit worried when he said that.

He's not in charge of ODAC for nothing, after all. :P

Oh well, it turned out okay.... he suggested taking a trip through what he only referred to vaguely as "the drain".

We walked out to the main gate, and found that "the drain" was, well, a drain. Haha.

For all those CJ people reading this, you know that big drain right outside school? On the left side of the highway?

Yeah, he talked to us about going down that drain while we stood outside the gate.

Then he said, "But we're not going down this drain; we're going into this one!"

Uh, CJ people, for your info, the second drain that he's talking about is that storm drain right next to the main gate. If you ever walk out of the main gate, go over to the left and you'll see a grille with a small gate at the bottom. Behind that grille is the entrance to the storm drain; that circular entrance.

It was kinda funny in there....no one could see a single thing, and we were all walking with our feet against the sides so that we wouldn't step into the water directly below us!

Er, some people gave up and stepped in the water later, but Edison (who was put in front, since he's the only boy in the class, haha) was wading in the, uh...ankle deep water from the very beginning. :D

All of us came out with cobwebs in our hair.

I can see it now.... hair fashion of the season: "a la storm drain".

Cool. Haha. :P

Xuena even got a spider in her hair. Had to remove it for her. :D

Summary: everyone had fun, and Edison got to be the big strong man, clearing the way for all the girls.... :P

Not even really halfway through today yet, so not much to say about today.

Except that there's band later today, and I love the band people, so.... :D

Oh yeah, John won that chess competition earlier this year; he got his prize this morning. I found it a bit funny coz his class was mentioned as 2T22. Which doesn't exist anymore since it was dissolved (is that really the right word for it? Sounds odd) at the beginning of this year!

All right, I seem pretty sane today. So I'll leave you all on that note. :D

I'm back!

Man, it was nice seeing Kong Wen again after...what, a year?? Haha. :D

He's always so quiet; he's almost adorable. Haha. :D Poor thing, he was so hot, coz it was winter when he left Australia! :D

The psych books he passed to me were pretty heavy...

Just found the full-length Terminator 3 trailer; it's really cool!!

Man, I've been waiting what, 8 years for T3 after "T2: Judgment Day", and it's finally here! :D

Pamela pointed out to me on Saturday that some people who saw Episode Six of Star Wars probably waited ages for Episode One.... And after 20 years, some of them probably died without ever getting to see it.

Well, that's sad, but hey, I waited eight years and T3's here! I'm not gonna be like those people! Haha! :D

I should go add this to my wish list now. :D

Have to get changed in a few minutes... Going out to meet Kong Wen.

Kong Wen's another nice guy...haha. I seem to think a lot of guys are nice! :P

Anyway, he was with us in CJ for the first 4 months last year (I wasn't there for first 3 months, so I only knew him for a month! :P), then he flew off to Australia to do his foundation year.

He came back last year during his holidays and we tried to sneak him into all our lectures; it worked until Geog lecture... Mr Low realised that he didn't recognise him!

Haha.....I quote: "Vanessa, who's that boy sitting next to you??"

Haha. :D

Oh well...meeting him later coz he's passing me some psychology books that he brought back from Australia...like I said, he's a nice guy! :)

K, gonna go off now. :)

Just got back from IJ Carnival.

My feet are killing me!!!

This is what happens when you've been on your feet for about 5 hours....Good Lord.

But I had fun, though! Went to both my sisters' stalls; both were pretty good.

Holiday tomorrow. Youth Day.

Haha, Sylvia doesn't get a holiday coz she's in Poly.... :P

Okay, well, I'm tired, and my brain doesn't seem to be functioning...I guess I'll just go think about what I wanna do with my holiday tomorrow. :)

WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!

Exams are over!!!!!

Yay!!!

Finally!!!!

All right, enough exclamation marks. :P

All the papers sucked.... only Maths today was really easy!!

GP was okay, I guess; so was Econs. Econs wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be.

Lit and Geog really sucked, though.

Ah well. Stuff like this happens in life, I guess.

Four months till A levels.

Hey, as long as I get good grades then, who cares about anything that happens in between? :D

Note to self: must study harder!!!

GP paper today was okay....

I should be able to pass for the essay, I think.

Comprehension paper was on suicide.

Haha. I wanted to laugh till I cried; John and I had a huge debate about suicide last Friday- turns out that it was of use!! :D

I think I did pretty okay for AQ...I had a lot to say about suicide, thanks to our debate. :D

The weirdest thing was when the auditorium lights went out! Yeah, blackout... the weird thing is that it sort of crossed my mind when I entered the hall this morning..."What if all the lights went out?"

Freaky, but cool.

We got 5 mins extra time thanks to the blackout! :D

That meant that I had just enough time to finish my AQ; I squinted when the lights were out and finished the vocab section by the light coming through the windows. :D

All in all, quite a good paper, I think. :D

Wai Lun was sitting two rows away from me; could see him throughout the whole paper. He seemed kinda lost during the essay! Poor thing..... :P

Okay, have Lit tomorrow.

Gonna read my notes to sleep tonight.

Tomorrow morning before e paper, I'm gonna read e poems that I spotted for Sylvia Plath... planning on doing e context for Plath and API.

Context or essay for A&C, I'm open for both; A&C is probably the one text that I'm most confident about! :P

Okay, dinner now. After that, more study.

Man, it's really coming outta my ears. :P

It's late.

School reopens tommorw.

And there's a GP exam tomorrow.

Crap, I've never been so worried about GP before.

Been studying like nuts for the past three weeks of holiday; I've never studied so much before in my life, not even for the O levels two years back. O.o

Have five papers next week, one on each day of the week.

Pam's last paper is on Thursday, so she gets Friday as a holiday.

Unfair.

John and Wei Jian end on Wednesday. Two days of holiday.

Even more unfair.

Tired....

I'll probably be asking Mr Low for more consultation time sometime this week before the Geog paper; Friday's consultation answered a lot of questions but I left knowing that there's still so much more that I need to study!!!!

All right, I'm going to sleep.

Consultation for Geog today.

A bit of a disaster, coz I woke up this morning, switched on my phone and found out that Edison had messaged me at 1 in the morning to say that he wasn't coming for consultation coz he hadn't started studying Geog yet and so had nothing to ask!!

I freaked and called Pam up and asked her to come with me, coz I haven't really studied physical geog yet! Only human geog! So I didn't really have questions..... :P

Anyway, Pam, being the wonderful person that she is, came to school even though I called her about an hour before my consultation slot....

I love Pam!! :D

As a friend.

Haha. :P